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#+title: Closeted Cross-Dressing
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I struggle to remember what set the wheels in motion that led to me ordering
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some collections of clothing on eBay. Perhaps it was memories from cosplaying
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and [[id:6f71c239-bedc-4842-8dd6-ea067d62daf5][crossplaying]] at Otakon, the exhiliration of it, the joy of expressing a
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different side of myself. I was in a painful place, having been unemployed for
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months with my severance dwindling. I had nothing but free time alone with
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myself and my depression. Perhaps, feeling so emasculated and left to perform
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more traditionally feminine-coded work around the apartment, I felt due to
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embody the part. Not that I enjoyed doing most of the chores any more than I did
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when my father made me do them for him before. Buying clothes online presented a
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risk of being found out when they arrived, but I did have the benefit of being
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home when they'd likely arrive, and it was far easier than facing the
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unthinkable anxiety of trying to go buy anything in person. I also didn't want
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to pour a bunch of money into it. I ended up buying a cheap lot of colorful tops
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and skirts, and a couple mixed collections of panties and thongs. Nothing too
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fancy or particularly stylish, but I had some stuff to mix and match.
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