From a4e1a1cf03fbb96a67d5f62c58beb79211135f63 Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: Correl Date: Sat, 15 Jan 2022 01:09:31 -0500 Subject: [PATCH] notes --- 20200719003936-being_transgender.org | 4 ++++ 20220109103624-autobiography.org | 4 ++-- 20220114224353-gender_performance.org | 7 +++++++ 3 files changed, 13 insertions(+), 2 deletions(-) diff --git a/20200719003936-being_transgender.org b/20200719003936-being_transgender.org index fc23a44..2c77047 100644 --- a/20200719003936-being_transgender.org +++ b/20200719003936-being_transgender.org @@ -7,3 +7,7 @@ I [[id:bd399ef9-9cc0-425c-8fc3-edf313a676f2][came out]] publicly as gender-nonco in 2018. Since September 25th, 2018, I've been doing [[id:47ba16c3-6f29-4d66-8d0d-1d5dee2de36a][Feminizing hormone therapy]], and it's been an overwhelmingly positive experience. It's a slow process, but there is absolutely progress. + +Similar to many other trans women, I put on a strong [[id:300b7d95-990c-4f61-99ca-42e6b7123c2c][Gender Performance]] as a +man, or what I thought a man ought to be. Not so much by hypermasculinizing +myself, but by trying to play the masculine role I thought I was meant to fill. diff --git a/20220109103624-autobiography.org b/20220109103624-autobiography.org index a3897b1..4d9a0cb 100644 --- a/20220109103624-autobiography.org +++ b/20220109103624-autobiography.org @@ -25,7 +25,7 @@ It is possible to rebuild yourself authentically from the darkest of places. - Living with roomates - My [[id:0c3817d8-2fbe-4a91-bab2-b4abbb024118][Sex and Love Addiction]] - Jen -- Crossdressing +- [[id:325b3e32-6a92-481a-b5dd-8464f491856a][Cross-Dressing]] - Therapy - Journaling - Miscarriage @@ -37,7 +37,7 @@ It is possible to rebuild yourself authentically from the darkest of places. * Topics - Expectations -- Escapism +- [[id:92241371-3c99-494f-a518-41914e714cea][Escapism]] - Isolation - Identity - Solitude diff --git a/20220114224353-gender_performance.org b/20220114224353-gender_performance.org index 1635795..721b933 100644 --- a/20220114224353-gender_performance.org +++ b/20220114224353-gender_performance.org @@ -14,3 +14,10 @@ useless, emasculated, unwanted, and broken. It was in that low period of my life, while I was stuck in my apartment alone while Jen (just my girlfriend at the time) worked to pay our bills, that I really started exploring and finding comfort in [[id:325b3e32-6a92-481a-b5dd-8464f491856a][cross-dressing]]. + +Jen would say I acted like a whole different person when I was presenting as a +woman back then. That never sat right with me, I felt more like myself if +anything. Perhaps that was coming from her having only ever known me as the man +I was trying to be, the performance. How could she know the real person +underneath, even if it was still just me, when I'd only just started to shed the +costume?